Pain was bad this morning. 6.5g at 8:15. Medium walk, short walk. Rain starting. I don’t feel very good right now. Very blah. This is probably the sign that I need a day off. 12:30 and I’ve been ready for another dose for a half hour now. Feel very yucky now. Not side effects. I think the pain is borderline going central. Hard to tell. 1:00. 7.5g at 2:15. Pain is rising to horrifying levels. Thank goodness I didn’t take the day off. Short walk. I feel shittier than I should based on my pain level. Unless it’s totally central and really bad, but I actually feel decent. I feel like the pain is low, but I feel awful. Super irritable, twinges of craziness hitting me from time to time. How? Unless I’m at a 9, but the meds are making me feel better than a 9? This is usually the point where a tolerance break is needed. Taking more meds doesn’t fix this. How I wish I could get through a day off without ending up drunk and in panic. Just went for a church walk. Feel a little better after a table session and icy hot. I was thinking before the walk…I feel like hell, AND I’m on drugs. I would kind of rather feel like hell and be drug free, but that’s not really how it works. On the walk I wanted to be free of these drugs. How I wish I could see clearly and breathe and be clear. How do I do that??? Fiber supplement has been helping nicely. Stomach feels better and pooping is more regular. Feels good. Any bit of normalcy feels good! Started feeling rage and antsy, went for a walk, but it started raining. Got on the bike and did 20 minutes. Kept feeling better as I went. I really don’t understand how this works. I’ve been thinking of taking tomorrow off. Put the lipo c next to the bed. If my pain is actually better, like I thought it was earlier today, then it’s worth lowering the meds. It dropped off before too long. Pain came back, but I still feel OK mentally. Must have slipped back to a 7. I am not motivated for a day off.