Had about 3 rums and 2 beers last night. Terrible pain. I played Life is Strange True Colors to get through the night. Pretty good game so far. Very helpful to have the PS5 last night. Story games from the couch are a good thing. Woke up at 7 something. Took 6.5g at 8. The plan is to take 4g at about noon. I’m struggling to make it there right now. I feel all kinds of fucked up. Stomach hurts all of the sudden. Bad head, bad pain. What a day. 4g at 11:30. Stomach hurts bad still. Took Zanaflex and tried to sleep. Didn’t work very well. I’m so tired and in all kinds of pain. I should have gone for a Tamazepam. Hopefully I’ll feel better when I take the 4:00 kratom dose. Can’t wait for that. I wish this stomach pain would go away. I don’t know what caused it. It started when I was sitting at my desk this morning. Took Pepto Bismol and no improvement. Just took an antacid. Doesn’t feel like acid though. I only ate some Swiss cake rolls all day. Super painful. Thankfully I kept the kratom down. 7.5g at 3:40. Fucking dying. Nice to see that my taper effort has dissolved in 2 days. 4:45 and I feel totally sick now. Head spinning, super hot. Feeling motion sick from a video game. Maybe because I haven’t eaten all day. I just want to pass the fuck out and be done with this day. I wonder how long this will last. Maybe I just took too much? Maybe reaction with alcohol? Finally coming out of it at 6. Now I’m freezing. Stomach feels a bit better and I’m hungry now. Ate some ramen. My head feels a bit better, but now my back is killing me. How do I go from doing so well, working hard, making progress, to the worst day I’ve had in a long time? In only 2 days time. What a spiral. What a rug pull. I feel that sense of dread, panic, psychosis. It’s so unbelievable. I cannot wait for this day to end. I don’t know what the fuck happened. Maybe a Tamazepam tonight or something. 7:00 now. I can’t wait for bed time. Used the icy hot cream. Took a medium walk. It was hard. Good to get out of the house. I feel super sore. Totally different from even yesterday. Totally wrecked. I’m going to try to rest up a bit over the next day or two. Nothing past 30 degrees on the table. Not much walking. Try to recover. Such a cruel fate to taste freedom and be pulled back into hell so dramatically like this.