Sleep was good. Loads of weird dreams. Woke up just before 8. 6.5g at 9:20. Didn’t cause the heady effects like yesterday. Not helping pain that much. Did a minute of 45deg on the table. Some at 30 also. Icy hot and brace and I feel the tiniest bit of pain relief. I’m so sick of writing about this. Sick of this horrible routing. I don’t want to update anymore. I know it’s helpful later, but I hate it. Heady effects started at about noon. Went for a short walk to avoid it. Came home and had more of it. Can’t focus on games. I guess it’s too much kratom. This stronger stuff is weird. More side effects, but no desired effect. That’s pretty much how it’s been lately though anyway. The table isn’t helping anything. I feel pops, but no pain relief. I saw a light at the end of the tunnel. I had a glimpse of drug free, but difficult life. Then it shit in my mouth and I’m back to panic state. I fucking love this shit. 8g of the plastic jar red at 3:00. Started feeling pretty normal from this. 4:30 and it’s starting to feel too strong. No idea how to dose anymore after switching kratoms. Maybe I’ll try 6.5 of this jarred red tomorrow morning. The last thing I need is to raise my tolerance AND to feel sick when doing it. Looking back, this issue started the very day I started the new kratom. Took a different kratom this pm and feel much better. Could be coincidence. 6 or 6.5 tomorrow morning of the jarred red. I think the bagged red is weaker. I’ll have to adjust that. At this point, I need a day off already after taking too much like 5 times in 3 days. Short walk after dinner. Another short walk in the evening. Feeling better as I go. I wish I took less today. How can different kratom fuck with me like this? What a relief. Not great, but it’s something. Lets me breathe.