Tried sleeping on the floor. It only lasted an hour because it hurt my hips and therefore spine. Woke up at 7:30. 6.5g at 8:15. Went to Walmart and feel like my ass hole is completely smashed in. So much pain. Ready to get wasted right now, but instead I’ll take 3.5g at noon. Another fantastic day! Loyola 7 year follow up tomorrow for a diagnostic procedure. 16 weeks between diagnostic procedures. How the fuck does that make sense? Going to bitch the fuck out of them tomorrow. Hopefully I won’t be completely demolished. It will be hard to wake up and get there by 9am. I’m realizing I don’t feel the sharp pain in the fused area anymore. The pain is central. I never know how to get back to localized. 7.5 at 3:35. A bit heavy on the side effects. Not helping pain that much. Been on the couch a lot. Been feeling super tired these last few days. If I don’t sleep until after 8, that happens. Pain is almost always worse too. Feeling that craziness creeping in. Desperation, a bit of panic. Side effects from the kratom, pain taking over centrally. Only a couple days ago I was practically orgasming on the table from the relief. Decent table session with a good pop. Medium walk. It was hard. Feels like lots of inflammation or something. Actually it feels like I just had a fusion surgery. I feel the sharp local pain again, and while that’s very difficult to deal with, it’s better than having the pain be central. Just did the table again and it felt decent. Rocking was nice. Not great, but I felt it.