Sleep is off the rails right now for some reason. Last night went OK in the end. I just couldn’t fall asleep last night, despite being super tired. I suffered through yesterday knowing the lack of sleep was making things worse and that today would be better. I just could not fall asleep, even with meds. It was about 1:00 when I took 2 GABAs and finally fell asleep. Half Zanaflex at 7:15. It was later than I would normally take that, but fuck it. Woke up at 9:45 finally. Forced myself out of bed then so as to not fuck up the sleep schedule horribly. 6g at 10:00. Back feels super sore. Why is it always sore, like I’ve been doing sit ups or working on ladders? I desperately need some decent sleep. The cruelty of this whole situation never ends. Pain is very bad. Been struggling hard since 1:00. I don’t know how I make it to 3. If I could pass out for an hour, that would be helpful, but that won’t happen. Just a matter of time until I cave and dose early. I don’t want to sell out my evening though. No taper today. 7 or 7.5. 7 + .5g at 3/3:35. This is really bad. I was able to pull out of the nose dive yesterday. I don’t see it happening today. Extra half gram was definitely necessary. Gave me an appetite for a tiny bit and I ate. 5:00 and it has already peaked and the pain relief is fading.