Managed to wake up at 9:30. No drugs. Felt very good. 6.5g at 10. Getting better as the day goes on. I feel relief. I don’t know how it happens. Pain is there, but I feel relief and the weight lifted off my brain. Ate some melon and it ‘felt’ good to eat good food. Must just be some serotonin from the kratom. Went to Aldi and got some pork and chicken. Put in half pork tenderloin, potato, and zucchini all in one go. It felt good to shop for things that weren’t frozen. Some nausea from the kratom, but still feel decent. Thank god. Lunch was dope. It’s the real deal. It all worked out at the same time and was great. Very easy. As long as I can get to the store, I can do this. Although I will get tired of it fast. Especially using the same meat or vegetable over and over. 7g at 3:35. Felt decent longer than expected. Now that I took it, I don’t feel as good. Side effects. Short walk before the pm dose I think. Proper cold out. Playing games in the pm. Long walk. Pretty easy. The cold helps. How? I wish I knew. I think it’s just a serotonin cycle. It can only sustain for so long, the collapses. Psychedelics create serotonin, that’s why they work. Nothing can sustain it though. I think all it does is put gas in the tank so I can deal with the pain. I should probably take tomorrow off. Or I can go back on taper schedule. 6/7. I always say, that after such a rough stretch, I need to enjoy a day or two. Get my head screwed back on. Today would have sucked if I didn’t take meds.