Hard wake up just before 8. I think sleep was good. 6g at 9:25. We’ll repeat yesterday. I need some better pain control. As good as I felt yesterday, I did have a lot of pain, and that can add up and turn to a flareup. Maybe. I don’t know. Today is the last day of the green Vietnam, so I’ll have to adjust doses with a slightly weaker kratom. Medium walk. Another good lunch. Medium walk. I feel like I’m losing my grip on the low pain. These small things don’t affect it anymore. I should note I haven’t had any caffeine in a few days. I definitely feel some sort of energy rush when I start getting pain relief. Then I’m completely knackered other times when the pain is bad. I think it’s ultimately serotonin. It was the same with the psychedelics. It’s unsustainable though. And I don’t know how to get it when I need it. How to reverse the train wreck. 6.5g at 3:30. Killing me sitting in this chair. Why do I keep having to go through this ridiculous cycle? Tomorrow is the injection. Diagnostic. No doubt they will want another 8 week follow up, then a 4 month wait for RF ablation. I NEED to find a new doctor. I need to make some calls. I can’t find anyone through insurance inquiry. I need to make a lot of phone calls. Long walk. Had that 2 hour post dose surge. Just got off the table. Pain relief! Oh my god is it nice. How do I keep it going? Felt like another walk, but I won’t do it. Not going to overdo it. Trying to get myself to chill on the couch a bit and watch Doctor Who. Tried table again. A little relief. Sitting at desk for a bit. It’s difficult, but it’s working. Please let this last. There is potentially more relief coming tomorrow. Please let it continue.