Could not get to sleep. Kept having an apnea type thing once I did. Half zanny at like 5 and 7. Woke up at 10. Thank fuck for that. Weird dreams keeping me up and creeping into reality. 6.5g at 10:35. Short walk. These high amounts of kratom have a hard drop off. Feeling low energy now. I want to play some games today. I don’t feel like I can sit upright ATM. Went to pharmacy. 7.5g at 3:30. Full gram less today. Playing TAB now. Not easy. Short walk after dinner. This kratom is fixing me up pretty good. It feels too strong after an hour or so. Feel like I should have taken less both doses today. Maybe 6/7 tomorrow or something. 6.5/7 at least. Been using the cane, brace. Being very cautious walking and doing everything. I do not want to fuck this up. I’m also wondering if changing kratom strains is helping. Maybe after 3 or 4 days, we switch it up. I can’t imagine that helping for long. Limping along to the finish line. Decent day in the end. Not easy though. Thank goodness the madness is gone for a day. Another sleep battle ahead tonight.

By Del