3 rums. Sleep was good. No Zanaflex at night. I took a full one at 6:30 and woke up at 8:30. Have a small headache. Felt horrifying after waking up, but better after caffeine. 7g at 10. Since I feel better, I was going to take 6.5, but I need to go to the store, so I took 7. I was going to take 7.5. Hopefully I can still do 7.5 in the pm. Didn’t feel that much relief this morning. Went to the store at like 10:45 just to get it out of the way while I still could. That parking placard is a fucking lifesaver. Makes those trips a lot easier. It was still super difficult though. Still have a headache. Still feel generally crappy. Started up my PC. As if I’ll be able to play games. Just did table and mag oil. Had a good pop. Feels better atm. I need to keep hammering these two things. The table is the only thing that has helped. I need more time on it. Feels amazing to sit at my desk and type this. It’s been days. 8g at 3:20. Still on green Vietnam. Just got new kratom in the mail. I’ll finish some older stuff first. Church walk. Today has not been good, but it is an order of magnitude better than the last few. Amazing how the tiniest bit of pain reduction starts changing things. I hope it’s the table doing it, so I can recreate it. My god do I hate going back to hell after any kind of decent days. And today was barely decent. Still a long way to go too. 9:30. Been eating way too much. Struggling, but in OK spirits. Pain is bad, but not a 10. Maybe an 8. Still very difficult, but I don’t want to die. One more time on the table and one more mag oil.