Pain was super bad last night. Hard to lay in bed. Sleep was a disaster. Constant wake ups. Woke up snoring. Half zanny, wake up 9:20. 7g at 10. Headache. Just did the table. Not too bad actually. Some pain in the lower lumbar area. Didn’t give it too much. I was having the idea yesterday about buying insurance or going to Mexico for a surgery. I think this will ultimately end up in a surgery. Both are very expensive and I don’t know how I deal with the money. Today has turned into a massive hangover. Headache has turned into migraine status. Pain is absurd. Went into bed and sort of blacked out for an hour. I have no clue about the passage of time. Just out of it. I feel so incredibly horrible right now. Just took 8.5 at 3:20. Going to get nasty side effects no doubt. Trying to wake back up. Please fucking help. Went back in bed and sort of blacked out again. I did fall asleep this time. Head still hurts just about the same. Back hurts now from lying still for 2 hours. Will this shitty day ever end? Been in crisis mode all day. I’m fucking beat. Pain is bad. Tried the table after getting out of bed and it hurt like hell. Just tried it again and it was a bit better, but still hurts a lot. Mag oil. Nothing actually helps. 9:15. Please let it end. Please let tomorrow be better.