I woke up way too early and the pain was pretty bad. I think the fibromyalgia is low at the moment, but the issues I had yesterday are still with me. Yesterday I said the day could go either way. Today I’m saying it’s only going to go into the shitter. This is a small amount of calm before the storm, and it’s not very calm.
It’s only 10:00 and we’re just about at horrifying levels. Help. I don’t know what today is. My head isn’t right, for sure, the pain is bad, but the fibro flare is not off the charts. It wall washes out to still being paralyzed in bed. Every time I move I gasp for air and let out a small scream.
Today has been so crappy. Pain is probably a 9. Fibro is only medium somehow. Medications aren’t helping anything. 4:30 and I haven’t eaten anything all day. I need to get some pain relief somehow. I never know how or why I get it sometimes and not others, even if I follow the same routines. These days are just a matter of holding on for dear life. I need pain relief before anything can happen. Please.
Tried the inversion table and it hurt like hell. Usually I get a tiny bit of relief or nothing, not bad pain. I don’t know why that happened. Really sharp, stabbing pain right in the spine. I regret doing that.
Yet another day where I barely managed to simply get through it. I can’t see any end to this pain or to the madness that always accompanies it. It took all my energy just to fight through and survive the day. I was completely unable to do anything for myself, or for any kind of recovery. There will be no real recovery until I get pain relief, and that will (hopefully) come from a medical procedure. I’m unable to even make it happen, so how the hell do I get there? How do I get the help I need when I’m not even able to get out of bed, or even go outside, or eat? Somebody please help.